Archive for September, 2006

Do you want to be dead now or tomorrow?

Saturday, September 16th, 2006

My friend Kwong Yoon always manage to make me laugh with his overly cruel sarcastic remarks about people he doesn’t like. Now, life has pulled us so far apart, we hardly have time to sit down and just chat, about whatever. Am I getting all musshy and stuff? Just read on, I can explain, cause that’s not my story today.

Back to my point. One of the most memorable KY’s ’sucky people’ comment:
You know what this person did? He …. blah blah da da da…and so on and so forth. Why can’t these people just die?! Why do we have to live with these stupid/annoying people? Why can’t they just walk somewhere and just falls down and DIE?!

Alright. That doesn’t sound so funny as compared to when he’s saying it the way he does. I swear to you, when he does it, it’s hilarious. Or if you still think that’s a really cruel thing to say, you can just go kill him, or at least kick him between his legs. He lives in Ipoh Garden.

Now, I’m not suggesting anything.

Anyway, the reason I’m bringing this up is that when things like that happens in real life, it’s a pretty traumatic event, even if it’s a person you don’t know very well, like a neighbour.

I know cause that just happened to me. The lady living opposite my house died this afternoon. The strange thing is she has no symptoms of any kind of health problems whatsoever. She’s in her mid-fifties, has been healthy all this while, from what I can see. My mom told me the news when I got home at around 9pm. "She just died" my mom said when I asked. I asked her "why? How?" Mom said she doesn’t know. She was still ok this morning taking a walk when she said she doesn’t feel  well and went home. Then, an ambulance came. She died. Just like that. My mom’s as shocked as I am.

I still remember how we use to greet each other when I go out or come back from work. Sometimes, I’d give her a lift to a nearby bus stop. She remembers my name cause her grandson has the same name. She’s an avid dog lover, I always see her talking to her dogs like they could understand her. She’s quite active, always takes her dogs for a walk in the evening. She’s had dogs as long as I can remember.

How can this be? This just proves how unpredictable life really is. I’m sure you always hear this motivational mantra: ‘Begin your day by treating it as if its the last day of your life.’ The gist of this mantra is to have a sense of urgency in life. The pain of uncertainty moves us towards being a better person, rather than wanting to be a better person.

As my mom and I was watching TV in the living room, I kept staring at her. She doesn’t notice. These questions kept playing on my mind: What have I not done for her today to make her happier? What am I waiting for?!

I don’t think I need more reminders about of how ‘forgetful’ I am. Do you?